“I am aware of being in a beautiful prison, from which I can only escape by writing.”
Source: The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934
Angela Anaïs Juana Antolina Rosa Edelmira Nin y Culmell , known professionally as Anaïs Nin, was an American essayist and diarist. Born to Cuban parents in France, Nin was the daughter of composer Joaquín Nin and Rosa Culmell, a classically-trained singer. Nin spent some time in Spain and Cuba, but lived most of her life in the United States, where she became an established author.
Beginning at age eleven, Nin prolifically wrote journals throughout her life, which spanned over sixty years up until her death. Her journals, many of which received publication during her life, detail her private thoughts and personal relationships, as well as detail surrounding the sexual abuse and incestuous relationship she had with her father. Also in her journals are details regarding her marriages to Hugh Parker Guiler and Rupert Pole, as well as her numerous affairs, including with psychoanalyst Otto Rank and writer Henry Miller, both of whom had a profound influence on her and her writing.
In addition to her journals, Nin wrote several novels, critical studies, essays, short stories, and several volumes of erotica. Much of her work, including the erotica collections Delta of Venus and Little Birds, was published posthumously amidst renewed critical interest in her and her work. Nin spent her later life in Los Angeles, California, where she died of cervical cancer in 1977.
“I am aware of being in a beautiful prison, from which I can only escape by writing.”
Source: The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934
"The Mohican"
Under a Glass Bell (1944)
“He was jealous of her future, and she of his past.”
Source: Delta of Venus
Source: The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934
Source: In Favor of the Sensitive Man and Other Essays
Source: Henry and June: From "A Journal of Love"--The Unexpurgated Diary of Anaïs Nin
“I can elect something I love and absorb myself in it.”
Source: The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934
“When you make a world tolerable for yourself, you make a world tolerable for others.”
February 1954 The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 5 as quoted in Woman as Writer (1978) by Jeannette L. Webber and Joan Grumman, p. 38
Diary entries (1914 - 1974)
Context: The artist is the only one who knows that the world is a subjective creation, that there is a choice to be made, a selection of elements. It is a materialization, an incarnation of his inner world. Then he hopes to attract others into it. He hopes to impose his particular vision and share it with others. And when the second stage is not reached, the brave artist continues nevertheless. The few moments of communion with the world are worth the pain, for it is a world for others, an inheritance for others, a gift to others, in the end. When you make a world tolerable for yourself, you make a world tolerable for others.
We also write to heighten our own awareness of life. We write to lure and enchant and console others. We write to serenade our lovers. We write to taste life twice, in the moment, and in retrospection. We write, like Proust, to render all of it eternal, and to persuade ourselves that it is eternal. We write to be able to transcend our life, to reach beyond it. We write to teach ourselves to speak with others, to record the journey into the labyrinth. We write to expand our world when we feel strangled, or constricted, or lonely. We write as the birds sing, as the primitives dance their rituals. If you do not breathe through writing, if you do not cry out in writing, or sing in writing, then don't write, because our culture has no use for it. When I don't write, I feel my world shrinking. I feel I am in a prison. I feel I lose my fire and my color. It should be a necessity, as the sea needs to heave, and I call it breathing.
Winter, 1931-1932
Diary entries (1914 - 1974)
Source: The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934
“Living never wore one out so much as the effort not to live.”
As quoted in A Woman's Journal : A Blank Book with Quotes by Women (2002) by Running Press Staff, p. 1932
Source: Incest: From a Journal of Love
Source: Henry and June: From "A Journal of Love"--The Unexpurgated Diary of Anaïs Nin
“I'm restless. Things are calling me away. My hair is being pulled by the stars again.”
Variant: I’m restless. Things are calling me away. My hair is being pulled by the stars again.
Source: Incest: From a Journal of Love
“Nature forms us for ourselves, not for others; to be, not to seem.”
Essais (1595), Bartlett's Familiar Quotations, 10th ed. (1919)
Source: The Journals Of Anais Nin
“You are the only woman who ever answered the demands of my imagination.”
Source: Henry and June: From "A Journal of Love"--The Unexpurgated Diary of Anaïs Nin
“There is a fissure in my vision and madness will always rush through.”
Source: House of Incest
“I will not adjust myself to the world. I am adjusted to myself.”
March 25, 1933
Diary entries (1914 - 1974)
Context: I disregard the proportions, the measures, the tempo of the ordinary world. I refuse to live in the ordinary world as ordinary women. To enter ordinary relationships. I want ecstasy. I am a neurotic — in the sense that I live in my world. I will not adjust myself to the world. I am adjusted to myself.
Source: The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 4: 1944-1947
Source: A Cafe in Space: The Anais Nin Literary Journal, Volume 3
The Diary of Anaïs Nin , Volume One 1931-1934
Diary entries (1914 - 1974)