“I tried to communicate happiness in that word, but I don't know if it came out that way. All I was feeling was despair. And envy. Envy so thick and so black I felt like I was choking on it.”

—  Jenny Han , book To All the Boys I've Loved Before

Source: To All the Boys I've Loved Before

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