Quotes from book

Every You, Every Me

“I couldn't remember ordinary moments, only the ones that had made an impression. Ordinary moments were the ones that fell away first.”

“Void is when there is absolutely nothing there and the nothing is natural, a complete vacuum. But empty - with empty, you are aware of what's supposed to be there. Empty means something is missing.”

“That word again. Happy. It’s a curse. The pursuit of happiness makes us deeply unhappy. It’s a trap. Before anything else happened, there was me in bed, thinking of who you used to be.
I don’t want you to think I forgot.”

“This is the thing they don't tell you about being a third wheel - it's not like you're the wheel that's added on. You were one of the original two wheels, but suddenly you're not so important anymore. The relationship drives fine without you.”

“Everyone tried with me. And everytime, it felt like the whole point of life was to see if trying was ever enough.”

“There is no such thing as no choice. There is always a choice. The only question is whether it's a bearable one.”

“There's no way to release yourself from a memory. It ends when it wants to end, whether it's in a flash or long after you've begged it to stop.”

“I barely notice colors unless I taste them. Not the yellows or the greens. I taste the deeper blues. The darker reds.”

“He was attractive. I knew that. And I knew that attractive people always got away with things.”

“I was starting to think I was making up memories, just to have answers.
Our brain does that sometimes.
Or at least mine does.”

“I try to be a careful person. Most of the time my carelessness is completely unintentional.”

“I had gotten so used to being alone, but never entirely used to it. Never used to it enough to stop wanting the alternative.”

“You don't know me. You know one me, just like I know one you. And you can't know every me, and I can't know every you.”

“Every you, every me. Fractals. Fractures.”

“That's the question, isn't it?" you said one night. "Does death bring freedom, or is it the end of freedom?”

“If you zoom close-if you get really close to someone, if you really get close to yourself-then you lose the other person, you lose yourself entirely. You get so close you can't see anything anymore.”

“I have always been aware of how I break.
I know what kind of situations will break me.
I know what kind of people will do it.
I know how much it will hurt.”

“I don’t want you to think I got through this undamaged, okay? But I’m learning to live with it. Because otherwise, the damage is all you are.”

“I asked you what you wanted and you said you didn't want anything. And I told you I wasn't planning on giving you anything; I was planning on giving you something.”