John Banville cytaty

„Przeszłość bije we mnie niczym drugie serce.”

„W mojej pamięci jest swoim własnym cieniem. Która z nich jest realniejsza, kobieta, która rozłożyła się na trawiastej skarpie moich wspomnień, czy też ta powłoka kurzu i suchy szpik, jedyne jej ślady, które przechowała ziemia? Na pewno gdzieś trwa dla innych, ruchoma figura w gabinecie figur woskowych, jakim jest pamięć, ale ich obraz jest inny niż ten, który ja noszę w myślach, a wszystkie różnią się między sobą. W ten sposób człowiek rozgałęzia się i rozszczepia w umysłach innych ludzi. Nie trwa, nie może trwać, bo to nie jest nieśmiertelność. Nosimy w sobie postacie zmarłych do chwili, aż sami nie umrzemy, a wtedy to nas noszą przez krótką chwilę, a potem ci, co nas nosili, odchodzą, i tak dalej, aż po najdalsze, wymykające się wyobraźni pokolenia.”

„Na miłość boską, nie histeryzuj! - odburknęła. - Po prostu umieram, koniec kropka.”

„Być może całe życie jest zaledwie długim przygotowaniem do chwili, w której się z nim rozstajemy.”

„Byłem zawsze wyróżniającym się nikim, którego bezwzględnym życzeniem było stać się niewyróżniającym się kimś.”

„Pomieszczenie wyglądało tak, jak je zapamiętałem. Albo wyglądało, jak gdyby było takie, jakim je zapamiętałem, gdyż z reguły wspomnienia dopasowują się niezauważalnie do rzeczy i miejsc z odwiedzanej przeszłości.”

„- Pacjent - powiedziała mi pewnego dnia Anna, już blisko końca - to dziwne słowo. "Cierpliwy". A ja wcale nie jestem cierpliwa.”

„To, że tu jestem, wynika po prostu z potrzeby, żeby nigdzie nie być.”

„Żaden szczegół ludzkiego oblicza nie zniesie dłuższej obserwacji.”

„A więc, panie doktorze - odezwała się trochę za głośno, radosnym, zdecydowanym tonem gwiazdy filmowej z lat czterdziestych - to wyrok śmierci czy dożywocie?”

“We carry the dead with us only until we die too, and then it is we who are borne along for a little while, and then our bearers in their turn drop, and so on into the unimaginable generations.”

“Perhaps all of life is no more than a long preparation for the leaving of it.”

“Given the world that he created, it would be an impiety against God to believe in him.”

“In order really to write one has to sink deep into the self and become lost there.”

“When I won the Booker Prize, I said that it was nice to see a work of art winning this prize and I've never been forgiven for that. When you get a prize, you're suppose to be humble. Somebody was interviewing me and said, 'This is a great day for Ireland'. I said, 'Why? Ireland didn't do it, I did it.' I wasn't forgiven for that either. I don't wear the green jersey and I don't hobnob with Michael D in the Park, although I quite like Michael D.”

“Fiction is just a constant torment, and an embarrassment. I loathe my fiction. I have a fantasy when I'm passing a bookstore that I could click my fingers and all my books would go blank, so that I could start again and get them right.”

“My friends tell me I must stop saying in public that I ‘hate all my novels’. What I mean is that I am profoundly dissatisfied with everything I have done simply because it is not good enough by my standards. But my standard is perfection, and as we know, perfection is not allowed to such as us. On the other hand, I begin every new book in the complete conviction that this time, this time I shall get it right. Rationally I know this will not be so, but art has its reasons.”

“The force of the idea was such that I drew the car to the side of the road and stopped and, for some reason, laughed. It was a loud laugh, unsteady, and sounded, even to my own ears, slightly maniacal. Thinking back now, I realise it was less a laugh than the birth-cry of my dark and twin brother Benjamin Black.”

“I hesitate to talk about Czech food. […] The people are very sweet, wonderfully cultured, very friendly, but my God how they eat that food I do not know. It is surely the most disgusting cuisine in the world.”

“I'm doing my best to not be too rude about it, but oh my God that Czech food…”

“I suppose many people in Ireland would regard me as being more a European writer than an Irish writer. I don't think this is so.”

“The first thought that occurred to me, that night when I heard the chairman of the jury announce my name, was, Just think how many people hate me at this moment. Naturally, I wanted to annoy those people even further by being arrogant.”

“Coming from a tiny island, it's very exciting to be at sea in Central Europe in the sense of vast stretches of land all around one. We don't get that in Ireland.”

“I don't know what citizens of Prague must feel about these endless lines of tourists tramping over their streets.”

“A book at the very start comes to me as a nebulous geometric form, a kind of tension in space that has to be resolved. The resolution is effected by fleshing out the form with character, plot, dialogue, etc. But the original structure perseveres throughout, even when, or perhaps especially when, I am not conscious of it being at work. Art is a mysterious business.”

“Let's not despise story-telling. Like all novelists, I have this low desire to tell people stories.”

“We cannot all afford a farm in Cuba or a suite at the George V in newly liberated Paris, and more often than not must strive to forge our clean, well-lighted sentences at a folding table wedged between the baby's cot and the dining table.”

“The older I get, the more confused I get. I used to think that age would bring wisdom. It doesn't, it just brings confusion. But I find that this confusion is artistically useful. It's a kind of progression, a negative progression. It's moving into areas that you didn't know were there. It becomes more dreamlike all the time. When I was starting out as a novelist, I would have been furious if anyone said to me that novels are dream-like or that they're doing things the novelist didn't know he was doing. Now, I find that it's absolutely true.”

“I like to dress conservatively because then the outrageous things you say are even more outrageous.”

“I feel that over the past 15 years, there has been a steady move toward more populist work. I do feel - and of course I'm completely biased - that this year was a return to the better days of the 80s and early 90s. It was a very good short list and a decent jury; it didn't have any stand-up comedians or media celebs on it, and I think that's what the Man Booker prize should be. There are plenty of other rewards for middle-brow fiction. There should be one decent prize for [pause] real books.”

“Certain moments remain in the mind with such force and clearness that one suspects they must be invented; that they are not held in the memory but generated out of the imagination.”

“My present study - a word that always makes me uneasy, I am not sure why - is a small apartment in a huge, anonymous, quadrilateral block in Dublin city centre. My window, the one I do not look out of, gives on to a courtyard where no one ever goes, and where the silence is day-long and almost pastoral. When I first began to come here to work, a dozen years ago, I used to shut my door on entering each morning and put the chain on. The place is clean, or cleanish, and, yes, well lighted. Here I am unassailable. Or so I like to imagine.”

“I drive from home to my office, a small apartment on the river in the center of Dublin. I write there from 9 a. m. to lunchtime, I take a simple lunch—bread, cheese, nice cup of tea—work until 6 p. m., then home for dinner. Viewed from outside my head it is a singularly dull and uneventful day, but inside my head … aaah.”

“I could have kept [writing "Irish" novels such as Birchwood] and probably had a good deal more success than I did, especially on this side of the Atlantic. But you have to try to do many things. You have to try to do things that you actually think you're incapable of.”

“One must try to keep a sensible perspective and not take oneself too seriously.”

“Ambiguity is the essence of Irish writing, I think.”

“Wodehouse is very interesting. There must be all kinds of darknesses in that man's life.”

“[On The Sea being filmed] It's not a blockbuster and it's not going to earn half a billion in the first weekend, but it's a work of art and I'm very pleased with it.”

“If they give me the bloody prize, why can't they say nice things about me?”