Patrick Modiano citations

“Il existait à Paris des zones intermédiaires, des no man's land où l'on était à la lisière de tout, en transit, ou même en suspens.”

“La fugue – paraît-il – est un appel au secours et quelquefois une forme de suicide. Vous éprouverez quand même un bref sentiment d’éternité. Vous n’avez pas seulement tranché les liens avec le monde, mais aussi avec le temps.”

“… il semble que ce qui vous pousse brusquement à la fugue, ce soit un jour de froid et de grisaille qui vous rend encore plus vive la solitude et vous fait sentir encore plus fort qu’un étau se resserre.”

“Je m'appelle Rebecca et je vous aime.
Je ne sus que répondre.
— Voilà, m'expliqua-t-elle, ils vont vous tuer. Il faut que vous partiez dès ce soir. Je m'en occupe. Je suis officier de l'armée israélienne, et je n'ai pas de compte à rendre au commandant du camp. […] Je vous aime, je vous aime. Je vous ferai appeler dans mon bureau ce soir à huit heures. Rompez!”

“Pour moi l'automne n'a jamais été une saison triste. Les feuilles mortes et les jours de plus en plus courts ne m'ont jamais évoqué la fin de quelque chose mais plutôt une attente de l'avenir. Il y a de l'electricité dans l'air, à Paris, les soires d'Octobre à l'heure où la nuit tombe. Même quand il pleut. Je n'ai pas le cafard à cette heure-là, ni le sentiment de la fuite du temps. J'ai l'impression que tout est possible. L'année commence au mois d'octobre. C'est la rentrée des classes et je crois que c'est la saisons des projets.”

“Il faut longtemps pour que resurgisse à la lumière ce qui a été effacé. Des traces subsistent dans des registres et l'on ignore où ils sont cachés et quels gardiens veillent sur eux et si ces gardiens consentiront à vous les montrer. Ou peut-être ont-ils oublié tout simplement que ces registres existaient”

“Une petite fille rentre de la plage, au crépuscule, avec sa mère. Elle pleure pour rien, parce qu'elle aurait voulu continuer de jouer. Elle s'eloigne. Elle a déjà tourné le coin de rue, et nos vies ne sont-elles pas aussi rapides à se dissiper dans le soir que ce chagrin d'enfant?”

“J'ai toujours cru que certains endroits sont des aimants et que vous êtes attirés vers eux si vous marchez dans leurs parages.”

“Quand on aime vraiment quelqu'un, il faut accepter sa part de mystère… et c'est pour ça qu'on l'aime…”

“Il essayait vainement de se rappeler dans quel livre était écrit que chaque première rencontre est une blessure.”

“Il lui semblait atteindre un carrefour de sa vie, ou plutôt une lisière d’où il pourrait s’élancer vers l’avenir. Pour la première fois, il avait dans la tête le mot avenir, et un autre mot: l’horizon. Ces soirs-là, les rues désertes et silencieuses du quartier étaient des lignes de fuite, qui débouchaient toutes sur l’avenir et l’HORIZON.”

“Depuis, le Paris où j'ai tenté de retrouver sa trace est demeuré aussi désert et silencieux que ce jour-là. Je marche à travers les rues vides. Pour moi, elles le restent, même le soir, à l'heure des embouteillages, quand les gens se pressent vers les bouches de métro. Je ne peux pas m'empêcher de penser à elle et de sentir un écho de sa présence dans certains quartiers.”

“Il y a des etres mysterieux - toujours les memes - qui se tiennent en sentinelles a chaque carrefour de votre vie.”

“Encore aujourd'hui, il m'arrive d'entendre, le soir, une voix qui m'appelle par mon prénom, dans la rue. Une voix rauque. Elle traîne un peu sur les syllabes et je la reconnais tout de suite: la voix de Louki.”

“Je pense à Dora Bruder. Je me dis que sa fugue n'était pas aussi simple que la mienne une vingtaine d'années plus tard, dans un monde redevenu inoffensif. Cette ville de décembre 1941, son couvre-feu, ses soldats, sa police, tout lui était hostile et voulait sa perte. A seize ans, elle avait le monde entier contre elle, sans qu'elle sache pourquoi.”

“Hutte répétait qu'au fond, nous sommes tous des "des hommes des plages" et que "le sable - je cite ses propre termes - ne garde que quelques secondes l'empreinte de nos pas".”

“De tous les caractères d’imprimerie, il m’avait dit qu’il préférait les points de suspensions.”

“Parfois, le cœur se serre à la pensée des choses qui auraient pu être et qui n'ont pas été.”

“Je préfère remonter à pied les Champs-Elysées un soir de printemps. Ils n'existent plus vraiment aujourd'hui, mais, la nuit, ils font encore illusion. Peut-être sur les Champs-Elysées entendrai-je ta voix m'appeler par mon prénom…”

“… l’un de ces dimanches doux et ensoleillés d’hiver où vous éprouvez un sentiment de vacance et d’éternité – le sentiment illusoire que le cours du temps est suspendu, et qu’il suffit de se laisser glisser par cette brèche pour échapper à l’étau qui va se refermer sur vous.”

“La fugue – paraît-il – est un appel au secours et quelquefois une forme de suicide. Vous éprouvez quand même un bref sentiment d’éternité. Vous n’avez pas seulement tranché les liens avec le monde, mais aussi avec le temps. Et il arrive qu’à la fin d’une matinée, le ciel soit d’un bleu léger et que rien ne pèse plus sur vous. Les aiguilles de l’horloge du jardin des Tuileries sont immobiles pour toujours. Une fourmi n’en finit pas de traverser la tache de soleil.”

“Elle voulait s’évader, fuir toujours plus
loin, rompre de manière brutale avec la vie courante, pour respirer à l’air libre. Et puis il y avait
aussi cette peur panique, de temps en temps, à la perspective que les comparses que vous avez
laissés derrière vous puissent vous retrouver et vous demander des comptes. Il fallait se cacher
pour échapper à ces maîtres chanteurs en espérant qu’un jour vous seriez définitivement hors de
leur portée. Là-haut, dans l’air des cimes. Ou l’air du large. Je comprenais bien ça. Moi aussi, je
traînais encore les mauvais souvenirs et les figures de cauchemar de mon enfance auxquels je
comptais faire une fois pour toutes un bras d’honneur.”

“Circumstance and settings are of no importance. One day this sense of emptiness and remorse submerges you. Then, like a tide, it ebbs and disappears. But in the end it returns in force, and she couldn’t shake it off. Nor could I?”

“Then again, the term “Jew” meant nothing to the fourteen-year-old Dora. When it came down to it, what did people understand by the term “Jew”? For himself, he never gave it a thought. He was used to being put into this or that category by the authorities. Unskilled labourer. Ex –Austrian. French legionnaire. Non- suspect. Ex-serviceman 100% disabled. Foreign statute labourer. Jew.”

“Of all the punctuation marks; he told me ellipses were his favorites.”

“All that would remain of me would be the raincoat I’d been wearing, rolled on a bench.”

“When you are young, you neglect certain details that might become precious later.”

“We passed the Gardens and turned down Avenue de New York. There, under the embankment trees, I had the unpleasant sensation that I was dreaming. I had already lived my life and was just a ghost hovering in the tepid air of Saturday evening. Why try to renew ties which had been broken and look for paths that had been blocked off long ago? And the plump, moustachioed little man, walking beside me, hardly seemed real.”

“He (Rigaud) the unpleasant impression that he was returning to his point of departure, to the scene of his unhappy childhood, and that he was sensing the invisible presence of his mother, just when he had managed to forget the wretched woman: all his memory of her were unpleasant. And r once again he would have to remain a prisoner in the garden for hours upon hour …the thought made him shiver. The war was playing a dirty trick on him in forcing him to return to the prison that had been his childhood, from which he had escaped so long ago. Reality was now resembling the nightmares he regularly had: it was the beginning of new term in the school dormitory…..”

“Perhaps it was one of those mild, sunny winter days when you have a feeling of holiday and eternity- the illusion that passage of time is suspended, and that you need only slip through this breach to escape the trap which is closing around you.”

“Such photographs exist in every family. They were caught in a few seconds, the duration of the exposure, and these second have become an eternity.”

“His speech is hesitant because he is used to crossing out his words. It is true that after several redrafts, his style may be crystal clear. But when he takes the floor, he no longer has any means at his disposal to correct his stumbling speech.”

“Children are liable to expect more from life than their parents, and faced with adversity their reaction is more violent. They go farther, much farther than their parents, and, thereafter, their parents are unable to protect them.”

“You can lose yourself or disappear in a big city. You can even change your identity and live a new life. You can indulge in a very long investigation to find a trace of malice, starting only with one or two addresses in an isolated neighbourhood. I have always been fascinated by the short note that sometimes appears on search records: Last known address. Themes of disappearance, identity and the passing of time are closely bound up with the topography of cities. That is why since the 19th century, cities have been the territory of novelists, and some of the greatest of them are linked to a single city: Balzac and Paris, Dickens and London, Dostoyevsky and Saint Petersburg, Tokyo and Nagai Kafū, Stockholm and Hjalmar Söderberg.”

“Like many writers before me, I believe in coincidence and, sometimes, in the novelist’s gift for clairvoyance- the word gift not being the right one, for it implies a kind of superiority. Clairvoyance is simply the part of profession: the essential leaps of imagination, the need to fix one’s mind on detail-to the point of obsession, in fact, so as not to lose the thread and to give in one’s natural laziness. All the, is tension, this cerebral exercise may well lead in the long run to “flashes of intuition concerning events past and future”, as defined by Larousse dictionary under “clairvoyance.””

“And that these directories and yearbooks constituted the most valuable and moving library you could imagine, as their pages listed people, things, vanished worlds, to which they alone bore witness.”

“Certain coincidences risk passing unnoticed; certain people have appeared in our lives on several occasions without our realizing it.”

“With the passing of the years, each neighbourhood, each street in a city evokes a memory, a meeting, a regret, a moment of happiness for those who were born there and have lived there. Often the same street is tied up with successive memories, to the extent that the topography of a city becomes your whole life, called to mind in successive layers as if you could decipher the writings superimposed on a palimpsest. And also the lives of the thousands upon thousands of other, unknown, people passing by on the street or in the Métro passageways at rush hour.”

“I was responsible to no one, I had no need mumble excuses or lies. I would become someone else and my metamorphosis would be so complete that no one I’d met over the past fifteen years would be able to recognize me.”

“Hutte, for instance, used to quote the case of a fellow he called "the beach man ". This man had spent forty years of his life on beaches or by the sides of swimming pools, chatting pleasantly with summer visitors and rich idlers. He is to be seen, in his bathing costume, in the corners and backgrounds of holiday snaps, among groups of happy people, but no one knew his name and why he was there. And no one noticed when one day he vanished from the photographs. I did not dare tell Hutte, but I felt that " the beach man " was myself. Though it would not surprised him if I had confessed it. Hutte was always saying that, in the end, we we're all " beach men " and that the sand keeps the traces of our footsteps only a few moments "”

“What makes us decide to run away? I remember my own flight on 18 January 1960….. A calm ordinary winter, not to be compared with that eighteen years earlier. But it seems that the sudden urge to escape may be prompted by one of those cold, grey days which makes you more than ever aware of your solitude, intensifying your feeling that a trap is about to close.”

“A novelist's lack of awareness of and critical distance to his own body of work is due to a phenomenon that I have noticed in myself and many others: as soon as it is written, every new book erases the last one, leaving me with the impression that I have forgotten it. I thought I was writing books one after the other in a disjointed way, in successive bouts of oblivion, but often the same faces, the same names, the same places, the same phrases keep coming back in book after book, like patterns on a tapestry woven while half asleep. While half asleep or while daydreaming. A novelist is often a sleepwalker, so steeped is he in what he must write, and it is natural to worry when he crosses the road in case he is run over. Do not forget, though, the extreme precision of sleepwalkers who walk over roofs without ever falling off.”

“Ever since, the Paris wherein I have tried to retrace her steps has remained as silent and deserted as it was on the day. I walk through empty streets. For me, they are always empty, even at dusk, during the rush hour, when the crowds are hurrying towards the mouth of metro. I think of her in spite of myself, sensing an echo of her presence in this neighbourhood or that. The other evening, it was near the Gare du Nord.”

“He thought a photograph was nothing; that he should blend into the surroundings and become invisible, the better to work and capture –as he said natural light. One shouldn’t even hear the click of Rolleiflex. He would have liked to conceal his camera. The death of his friend Robert Capa could in fact be explained, as he saw it, by this desire, the giddiness of blending into the surrounding once and for all.”

“From one moment to another one can lose heart.”

“The sign had been put up out of suspicion and a guilty conscience: “Military zone. Filming or photography prohibited."”

“But I wasn’t quite sure how to spell ‘ Cartaud, and I found listings for Cartau, Cartaud, Cartault, Cartaux, Carteau, Carteaud, Carteaux”

“Ever since my childhood, I had seen my father carrying so many bags- suitcases with false bottoms, leather satchels or overnight bags, even those black briefcases that gave him a false air of repectability…. And I never knew just what was in them.”

“Rue Froidevaux seemed to go on forever, as if the distances stretched to infinity.”

“You should never marry a lot younger than you…never…. it never works …there is not a single case of its working..”

“Why, one wonders, does lightning strike in one place rather than another?”