Richard Siken: Want

“I woke up in the morning and I didn’t want anything, didn’t do anything, couldn’t do it anyway, just lay there listening to the blood rush
through me and it never made any sense, anything.”

“You wanted happiness, I can’t blame you for that, and maybe a mouth sounds idiotic when it blathers on about joy but tell me you love this, tell me you’re not miserable.”

“Oh, the things we invent when we are scared
and want to be rescued.”

“You wanted to think of yourself as someone who did these kinds of things.
                 You wanted to be in love
                             and he happened to get in the way.”

“You play along, because you want to die for love, you always have.”

“You just wanted to prove there was one safe place, just one safe place where you could love him. You have not found that place yet.”

“Dear Forgiveness, you know that recently
we have had our difficulties and there are many things
I want to ask you.”

“We're shooting the scene where I swallow your heart and you make me
spit it up again. I swallow your heart and it crawls
right out of my mouth.
You swallow my heart and flee, but I want it back now, baby. I want it back.”