M.attie

“And yet women-good women--frightened me because they eventually wanted your soul, and what was left of mine, I wanted to keep.”

“Lighting new cigarettes,
pouring more
drinks.

It has been a beautiful
fight.

Still
is.”

“A love like that was a serious illness, an illness from which you never entirely recover.”

“Some lose all mind and become soul, insane.
some lose all soul and become mind, intellectual.
some lose both and become accepted”

“There is always one woman to save you from another and as that woman saves you she makes ready to destroy.”

“If there are junk yards in hell, love is the dog that guards the gates.”

“I was drawn to all the wrong things: I liked to drink, I was lazy, I didn't have a god, politics, ideas, ideals. I was settled into nothingness; a kind of non-being, and I accepted it. I didn't make for an interesting person. I didn't want to be interesting, it was too hard. What I really wanted was only a soft, hazy space to live in, and to be left alone.”

“Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think, I'm not going to make it, but you laugh inside — remembering all the times you've felt that way.”

“she was consumed by 3 simple things:
drink, despair, loneliness; and 2 more:
youth and beauty”

“Once a woman turns against you, forget it. They can love you, then something turns in them. They can watch you dying in a gutter, run over by a car, and they'll spit on you.”

“It all comes down to the last person you think of at night, that's where the heart is.”

“Can you remember who you were, before the world told you who you should be?”

“I could feel the winter shaking my bones and banging my teeth together.”

“I talk to God but the sky is empty.”

“I like you, but not too much. I don’t want to like anybody too much.”

“I felt wise and cynical as all hell.”

“Perhaps, perhaps this would be the one to pull me out of my plunge.”

“If the moon smiled, she would resemble you.
You leave the same impression
Of something beautiful, but annihilating.”

“I must get back my soul from you; I am killing my flesh without it.”